Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Curiosity

If there is one thing I am, it is: curious. If there is one thing I am not, it is: good at not indulging in my curiosity. Example: 4chan - I've been on just about all of its pages, for better or worse, and am uncomfortably familiar with Goatse (it took me a long time to stop trusting those "it's just a cute bunny" URL links).

Case in point: reading ex-boyfriend's ex-girlfriend's blog. Now I know that this sounds...well, it doesn't sound like anything, since it's text, but it seems wrong on a lot of levels, especially since she and I have never met. BUT...well but nothing, it's weird. I know. Now on with my story.

Long story short, I ended up becoming familiar with one girl through her blog and began to notice the similarities between us. While we're vastly different people, it has been comforting to see that she's gone through similar feelings and anxieties, dreams and ways of expression that I indulge in as well. It may be a twisted circumstance, but I feel a bit comforted. It was also interesting to see that the so-talked-about-ex's-ex is completely human, and came with her full set of mishaps and disagreements. Of course, that opens up a whole new can of worms: "What if I'd not been so accommodating? What if I'd brought up the silly extraneous things I thought he didn't care about? What if...?" In reality, the real question is, "What if he hadn't lied to me?" That, friends, would be another life track entirely.

So I'm pretty sure that this posting was going to state some sort of moral about always being comfortable with who you are in whatever company you're with, or about the twisted dynamic internet information sharing has given our society, or even something as simple as, "Hey look, I'm doing something weird again." In any case, I have to get back to teh irl. And breakfast. Breakfast would be great.

Disclaimer: the things I've read about these people are from their public social networking sites, never taken second hand or backdoor-snooped.

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